My inner self
18 hours left.
Just came back from cca. We had one last run just now with our instructors, and for me though, it was kind of disappointing. The instructor pointed me out as one of the people she wanted to "see more from". I don't know how to be "more", but I know it's something that I have to find inside myself. Maybe the "more" is that really-die-also-must-go-on-stage heart that I had for the TDC dance in sec 4, or maybe it's that I need to be more expressive on my face.Where in the world is it??? This lacking thing has been dogging me all these months(and pointed out most obviously by the instructors) through these trainings. It's like the eleventh hour now already and I still can't manage to find it in me. Maybe I never will, but nevertheless, I am just going to do what I perceive as "most" tmr. It's all or nothing. For now though, I will just keep BLASTING the music at myself and continue to search for that missing "more". Results will be out by 5 tmr, and we've got to be back in class at 2.35 for lessons after that, since the whole thing will end by 1 for us and we'll make it back to sch in 45 mins after that. -crosses fingers:let us get GOH-
I KNOW I CAN BE MORE. But why is it not showing??!!!!!
The other day though, I was waiting for my bus after cca, and decided to take out my purse first, when I realised that my purse was missing! At first I was quite relaxed, but when it didn't surface after my rummaging of bag, I started panicking a little, and retraced my steps from the tracks to the bus stop, but I still couldn't find it. I was soooo upset when 39 came and I was still looking for my purse. 39 was leaving the bus stop when I FINALLY saw where my purse was. It was beside the dustbin at the bus stop, where I'd dropped it while carrying my bag(my wallet was placed at the edge of my bag, since I thought it would be more convenient for me to take it) to throw rubbish. =.=' And so I had to watch helplessly while 39 left me farther and farther, while holding my purse. Literally felt like hitting myself then grrr.
There's Chem test on friday(initially thurs but tmr syf so yea)! But I haven't started mugging :X
Princess last waltzed through at 18:34