Nightmare
There.I screwed up again.
Somehow, I just can't learn the moves and remember it as fast as others do. But even if I did, the chance of getting picked is actually small. So now's there's only the even smaller chance left that my cca records and other things can get me in. But it's ok even if I don't get in. I've accepted it, and thinking back, I think that it really isn't that bad. I must count my blessings. But I can't deny I am scared. I don't know what awaits me, and I am even more afraid of meeting with more failures and screwing up incidents, all by Chance's manipulation. Somehow it just seems to me that every time I put in effort into something, it just doesn't work. I guess I have to put in even more than my best. But too much of these disappointments have more or less, brought down my confidence. I really do lack it, but I do not have any idea how to get it back. I have seen the competition out there, and it's really a 'survival of the fittest'. All i can say is that I am not as strong, and that's why I just have to get on with my lot. It isn't a bad lot, so yea cheer up! (: and get over it with time. I am very tired now, I want to go and sleep. zzzz
Princess last waltzed through at 12:42