Hi there you all,
I haven't been updating I know, but I have been pretty busy in a sense these past 2 weeks. My new site is STILL not ready yet, so I guess I will only move when I come back from Korea :D Am going to Hangul in 2 days! But before that, there's still a day of OGL camp tmr (I better not get sunburnt tmr) before I depart on friday morning for a good 8 days trip to Seoul to shop and Jeju Island to ski! Even though I couldn't go for my beloved airport attachment because of this, I still am going to enjoy it thoroughly(and bring Lee Min Ho and the rest of F4 back). Anyonghaseo Hangul! :D
Last thursday, we went for JY's Vox Astra musical "Geek-cidentally In Love"at IJC. I rushed there in my dance tee and sch skirt after my cca. It was not bad, just a tad short and LD was grumbling about why JY couldn't go for dinner with us after that, and why we could only talk to her for a short while because being the her who liked to have "programmes" after everything(LOL), she just couldn't quite accept just going for the musical and leaving.
Went shopping with my family at Causeway last Friday to do some last minute shopping for Korea. I bought a pair of skinny jeans for a cheap $29 from Giordano which I am VERY happy about, because it looked so nice on me. xD The service at Giordano also made me very happy, because they didn't grumble or anything even when they had to search through their stock for my brother's S size shirt. And they provided altering for my jeans and also delivery to the Northpoint Giordano for collection.
Then out of sheer madness yesterday, I went to Daiso at SSC after school to pick up some curlers. I really enjoyed the feeling of shopping alone for a while. Oh and what do you all think about my latest short hair look?x)
or do you think this suits me better? YOU DECIDE (:
Princess last waltzed through at 10:48
I am going to move
Hey you all,
In 11 days this blog turns one year! :D But since I have found another site which I think is better to host my blog on, I shall move this blog then. I will leave the address here for about
7 days, after which you will have to ask me yourself if you want the new blog add. (:
And here's a update! This past week has been dedicated to PW, since it is the last week of PW already(awww ): ). My OP on Wednesday turned out well, though at the start I kept turning to the slides :X but other than that, all went well! Including the QnA part. (: The question first left me blank, and I had to stall for time by asking the examiner to repeat the question, but after that it all went well.
After PW!
Group: MJ122! <33
And after that immediately was 09S302's chalet! The first night, I played mahjong(won a few rounds YAY!) and BLUFF. Stupid Ariel kept catching me when I bluffed =.= , but I got better at it as the game went on and in the end HE ended up with the most pile of cards when we decided to stop the game. :P I slept at around 3am, with a few of the girls. The rest who could still hang on went to Macs to play Truth or Dare. Woke up in the morning, Khushboo felt floaty because she only slept for like 3 hours. I had 5 plus because of my smart decision to just sleep earlier.
After 2 hours of sleeping after breakfast, we went to watch 2012, even though I wanted to watch Paranormal Activity first. But 2012 turned out to be GOOD, and I am SUPER SERIOUS. It led me to reflect a lot of things after the movie. The graphics are simply stunning and the whole movie simply just blew me away. I give it a 4.95/5 (minus 0.5 simply because nothing is ever perfect (: ) So trust me. WATCH it.
Our completed PW Group Project File! :D <333>
09S302 CHALET PICS!
Princess last waltzed through at 14:50
When you are down in the doldrums.
Finally, here's a post. I kept postponing it, so sorry xD, but I've been busy with PW OP this whole week, and suddenly I just realise how nice the weekends are. I am feeling pretty ): right now, which is why I am posting right now here in the classroom in school.
I saw the VP this morning with Dad, and the conclusion is that I am going to repeat (of course). I thought I could handle it, but even out there while I was waiting while the VP spoke to my Dad inside his office first(I could hear some parts at points), my heart got heavier. All that was in control of me that period of time was that small little part in my heart that still wishfully, absurdly, unreasonably believed that I could somehow make it to J2 next year and do better, that part which was still very hinged and reluctant at the thought of wasting another year, that part who really believed that this was not what all the hard work exchanged for. The whole while I was in there, and the vp was trying to break the news that I should repeat, there were points whereby I was gathered enough to speak, but also points where I thought I couldn't take it any longer and was on the verge of bursting into tears. He was very nice about it the whole time, and told me the truth(which I already knew) in a roundabout manner, but when Dad and I left the GO and stopped outside a while to talk, I just couldn't take it anymore and burst into the long-stifled tears. I didn't want to, but I couldn't help it either. I knew the reason why I was like that, it was not because I was so against the idea of repeating, but rather because I thought I worked so hard, and yet it all exchanged for this, and the thought that I had let my parents down, plus also the breaking of that little part of heart that still stupidly had a little hope into smithereens. There was also that twinge of regret there, for not having chosen the right combi thus resulting in my wasting a year. Dad was like trying to counsel me inside the car, but well, I think it is hard for him too, which is why for the 1000th time here, I am thanking the heavens for giving me such great parents. I can't emphasize more.After that was 3rd OP dry run, which I also screwed up somehow, when I wasn't supposed to, because I was super nervous today for don't know what reasons. I can't deny this isn't one of the hardest times in my life, but I did study, and like I said before, so I will accept, plus I don't mind it, except ok maybe for that little part(but it broke and repaired itself to be like the majority) so yea. Well it means that I have the holidays free, and I will have a better chance at going for the Changi Airport attachment thing(which I REALLY want) and the mass media thing at NTU. Plus I am an OGL for orientation next year, which is working out according to my plan for my new year ahead. I don't know how to feel right now, but I am tired of substantiating my views about the good points about repeating, and maybe you people reading are also bored. I have stopped my life long enough for this, so I shall just leave it at here now.
Because when one drops to the bottom, there can only be everything to gain after that.It will be better.
Princess last waltzed through at 12:02
This past week, a lot of things have actually transpired in my mind. From the incessant long-hours meetings for PW WR(Written Report) at Downtown East Fish and Co Express and in school, to getting The Call from the General Office, to rushing madly for to meet the WR word limit and PW deadline today, it has been pretty much, a rushed week.
First, let me talk about The Call. All week, school has been buzzing about news like whether each other got a call, if yes, from the General Office(GO) or Civics Tutor. From what was heard,no call should be promoted, from CT means advanced and from GO means most likely going to retain. I got The Call on Thursday afternoon, when Dad called while I was PW-ing in the classroom with my PW group. I saw his call, and knew immediately that The Call must have reached him. I wasn't surprised, since I was long mentally prepared. Even my CT said it would be better for me when I met him last week, since this combination I am taking now doesn't seem to suit me very well. Indeed, I must agree, especially for Chem. The reasons, you should know if you have been reading here. I have more or less decided not to argue for advancing when Dad and I see the Principal, which The Call was to arrange for a time, because I will be sending myself into hell from this year end till the A Levels next year if I do. The only thing holding me back now is my friends' unyielding persuasion. They basically just have "DON'T RETAIN PLEASE" written on their faces every time they see me, on top of their endless talks to convince me about it. Other than that, there is also the prospect of another year of CCA(to change or not to change?) and a little bit of sadness of giving up a year, plus the weeny uncertainty brought by the what-if-don't-do-well-again-next-year-then-how question,but that is really small right now to me, because I know that
some best decisions in life, though hard, are a must to make.
And in the case of A Levels here, quality and not quantity matters. I would rather be sad now, than to be devastated later when I get my A Lvls' results and not even qualifying for Uni, much less say the course I want(Mass Comms). Plus, I am VERY much confident of staying on top of the game next year, and being more happy as well. I hope others like me will view this the way I do too, because this is in no way the end of the world, and there are simply SO MUCH good things about another year ahead. I am not saying that one cannot be upset at all, but I just hope that they will see it in a brighter way when the sadness hits, so it won't be prolonged. (:
I am fortunate, because I have my parents' support. Touches me to tears every time I think about it. I just thank god for giving me such great parents. <3 In a way, I wished they'd scolded me, so I could like not feel so guilty for not meeting their expectations. Then again, repeating has lots of benefits (I will post another day about it), so don't feel sorry or anything for me because I am not the least sad about it in any way, especially academically, so don't start in front of me, or you will get a tongue lashing from yours truly.
You have been warned. xD
Princess last waltzed through at 20:27
Sky's a little grey
The sky is a little grey today.
What should I say. Even though I am fine with another year, I can't say I am not the least bit upset. After all this hard work, improvements weren't seen at all, instead things went down.
"Not the lowest please, please, not the lowest, please..."
but my heart shattered the minute I counted to the first page of Chem. And for that moment, I couldn't fathom what was happening. Why was it happening? How could it happen? I prepared a month for it, and even thought it was ok. That moment, I couldn't help it, and started tearing up, trying to keep it inside, trying not to let people see, trying to believe it was ok to fall. again.
It was like forcing a cap to cover a bursting bottle, but eventually, i managed, even though there were occasions when I thought I couldn't hold it in anymore. I don't know how long this cap will hold, but it should be fine after a while. I just feel sorry towards my expectations, as well as my parents. I am sorry Daddy, I really am. And thank you for your support right till this very moment, even after my results. I have really tried, but I don't understand why it turned out like this. Maths was an accident this time, Bio I really have nothing to say because I blanked out during it, but Chem. My whole heart went into it, and it came back in smithereens. Results, cca-- everything just does not seem to go ideally, no matter how much work put in.
So I ask fate
why is it that hard work rarely pays off?
why is it that falls happen so often?
why, must it all turn out like that?
I am a little tired. Just a little.
The sky is really grey today.
Princess last waltzed through at 20:19
or do you think this suits me better? YOU DECIDE (:
The sky is really grey today.